| A rare post |
[Apr. 17th, 2008|02:15 am] |
Things are starting to go great here in Nashville. I work at guitar center now. (How fitting, right?) It's a commission job. I used to fear those like the plague until i realized it just meant I'd actually work. That, and I'm good at it so im loving it.
Got a band together. Nothing so far, just knowing the line-up and starting to put together songs and such. SO excited.
And i just can't hide it? I'm Ron Burgundy. |
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| a thought over 72 hours of craziness |
[Jan. 17th, 2008|04:34 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Regina Spektor- Samson | ] |
Stream of consciousness start: NOW.
Who goes into a store with the intent of being a dick? and for no reason? Still wrapping my mind around that one over the years.
Why do some girls find it necessary to often at first meeting tell completely strangers "I'm a complete bitch, so deal with it." Do they realize anybody in their right mind automatically goes "She's got baggage and emotional issues." To think that in your head (im a bitch) is fine, to broadcast randomly with people you barely or dont know, is honestly so pathetic. Girls like that are the first ones i know to run straight from.
You have no right to scoff at people who look "ugly" when you're in wal-mart at 11 pm looking like you havent bathed or brushed your hair since the ball dropped on 08.
A quote from my father I've wrapped around my head for almost a year after telling him this girl i liked was taken "sometimes, if they're worth it, you have to take them back."
BB King is still the king of the subtle bend.
Stevie Ray Vaughan was (is) the king of the attack.
Jimmy Page is the king of attitude.
Clapton is the king of classy blues now.
That last one has changed over the years.
One should always respect their superiors at work. However, never let them walk all over you. Sometimes, they're just as caddy as the younger employees.
Les Pauls and Strats complement each other like jack and coke. No--better. Having them both in an arsenal is like combining the power of body and mind.
Sometimes, even coming from me, you have to listen to music as just a music lover, not as a musician. Otherwise, you've lost your audience. ( some exceptions of course ;) )
The ones who are meanest to you, are jealous of who you are and what you have (i know that's an obvious one.)
Conversely, pay attention to the people you don't like and just hope it isn't because you are jealous of them.
There is something sexy about just being that damn sweet. Maybe it's the other part.
Regardless of how close the friend--stick to your game plan. Losing focus always hurts me and i never really can say i benefit when i get duped into changing my plans.
I could have this entire house sucked up by a tornado, and in the rubble and flat dirt that would be left--would be 14 scattered guitar picks everywhere.
^^
but at least not like the manor and have 3045 air soft pellets.
a college or busy young person's best friend is febreeze and 4 minutes in a dryer.
Also among those best friends:
vitamin water
advil before passing out
gatorade
junk food
somebody they instinctively try and text/call when feeling blue.
another 2 hours of sleep
Dont let yourself get walked on (working on it)
dont let yourself walk on somebody else in therapy (like Lumberg to Milton)
apply Futurama/Family Guy/Simpsons liberally to feeling blue.
Don't date somebody with a low self esteem.
Try not to have low self esteem, it's like drinking beer to sober up.
And lastly...
Every now and again just laugh at something not funny, cry when you're happy, tell somebody you barely know at work that they're doing a great job, tell yourself you are the shit, or just go take one.
This was really random, and i apologize for it's worthlessness and that you read the whole damn thing. |
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| sucks! |
[Oct. 1st, 2007|01:44 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Nashville | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the beatles- something | ] |
As things have started to progress in my new home and my roomate and I are ready to write and collab and start up our band again, I seem to hit a snag. I don't know, and hopefully SOMEBODY READING THIS has perhaps a background in medicine, but I'm a bit alarmed. I kept waking up last night in terrible pain. Right where the veins are in my arm (not my wrist mind you, my arm, in the place you'd have blood taken) it just burned and burned. I rubbed it and tried numerous things but everytime i fell back asleep I would just again wake up in pain. I popped like 3 advils and got another hour of sleep and it hasn't hurt all day but i can still feel the tenderness.
For a guitar player, who literally devotes his LIFE to that pursuit; practicing, playing, just not playing for half of a day is painful to my heart--that really fucking sucks. Any ideas? Intially i thought carpal tunnel but i dont think that affects you much near the elbow joint...am i wrong? |
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| i was tagged (and dont have 7 LJ friends who still post!) |
[Aug. 30th, 2007|08:10 pm] |
List 7 quirks about me.
1) I am constantly doing things with my fingers even when im sitting idle. Idle fingers? i dunno.
2) It is very rare that i am not singing even at the tiniest of volumes.
3) I really dig on Japanese culture
4) I'll get sensitive about dumb things, like thinking about something that happened many years ago when i was like 8.
5) The cutest or simplest of things will make me really happy, like seeing a mom play with her child.
6) I curse more than somebody with my personality probably should.
7) I am boring |
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| thoughts on "intimacy" |
[Aug. 29th, 2007|11:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
So given i haven't had much to do, and no belongs (particularly guitars) to pass away the time, I've been doing a lot of thinking, analyzing, looking back on things i really shouldn't because they bear no merit anyway. You know, the usual...
One of the things i have been thinking about, is the meaning of "intimacy." If you say "being intimate" it is an reference to having sex, but intimacy isn't that at all, it's just that if you're with a person and have sex--that usually creates an intense amount of intimacy. I decided to look back into my feelings about old girlfriends, or relationships in that manner whatever labeled they garnered...and found interesting results.
Interestingly enough, in my heart the person i felt the most intimate with and bonded to, was a girlfriend i did not have sex with. Intimacy means really sharing and giving things inside you important to you, to somebody else (and yes i did just laugh at the 12 year old sex joke in that statement.) Here's what did it for me with this girl (hell with it, her name is Geneva.) I gave her my book from all through high school with every poem, song, fleeting thought i had ever written as a gift. There was no occasion, i wasnt cheating my way out of an anniversary, i just felt that close to her. That was so intimate and deeply personal for me because not only were some of those early poems AWFUL, but every joy, every happiness, every brutal heartbreak to me i wrote about in there. It was like taking emotions from my entire adolescence and early adult hood and saying "here, you take care of them."
Sometimes...i feel the urge to ask her if she still has that full composition book. But it's fairly trivial at this point i guess... |
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| copied from myspace blog. |
[Aug. 28th, 2007|03:03 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | nashville | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | led zep- ten years gone | ] |
never holding back a thought
Had my interview for best buy today, im hired provided i pass the drug test--then i remember that night i did a few lines and baked bud brownies with Snoop and crew.
I'm feeling almost numb? Hah i dont even know how to describe it. I'm not particularly in a terrible mood, but far from a good one as well. I guess I'm just stressed. That, and the wonderful moving company probably wont have our stuff here for another 7 days--their line "14 working days isnt the same as 14 days." Of course it isn't. Good bussiness and un-willful penetration of one's rectum are two different things as well. Oh well, again there's nothing i can really do.
Here's the predictable part of this blog--finances are getting TIGHT. I'm sorta pulling out my hair about things I cannot change nor even know about for a few weeks, so i really wish i could get it off of my mind. Easier said than done, but zen dictates otherwise. I'm taking a new approach to blogging, seeing as i will have plenty more time on my hands as it is. I'm going to just treat it like a journal the way i should have. I don't care what a few people get out of reading what i write. Let the poor man's mad magazine esque writer vulture off of a person they seem to desperately despise--yet can't stop writing about. It's almost not worth mention--almost. :)
But hey, that's life :)
I've been looking in and around adds, some via internet some via guitar center (i need somewhere to go and play ya know? being my guitar isn't here.) trying to see who needs guitar player/singer/whatever in bands. Luckily as reason would show, there's an abundance of opportunities here. We (Daniel and I) have a good shot at playing at B.B King's blues club sometime in the future--any news on that and i'll gladly update. Anyway, those reading im glad you did, and sympathize because like myself you probably had not much else to do with your time. I'll keep posting, I promise this time. |
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| greetings from nashville |
[Aug. 25th, 2007|09:02 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | John Mayer- In Repair | ] |
Hey :) So at the moment...im going insane.
A) controlling the urge to spend money i shouldn't spend
B) our (Mine and Daniel's) belongings have not arrived yet so no TV, only one computer and most devastating--no guitars
C) no belongings to make this house truly "home" so it makes it a little number.
When they do arrive, i predict a much better mood. Until then, sparing online sessions accompanied by Itunes. Right now, Mayer's Continuum is soothing the savage beast.
BRING ME MY STUFF, F***ING MOVING COMPANY!! |
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| Nerd Humor :) |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|12:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
Mostly WWI/II references here (I really like Italy's), but check out the nice Napoleonic Wars joke on Spain (or I guess Sinking of the Spanish Armada would work too).
Headline: European Heighten Threat Levels
The English are feeling the pinch in relation to recent terrorist
threats and have raised their security level from "Miffed" to
"Peeved". Soon, though, security levels may be raised yet again to
"Irritated" or even "A Bit Cross". Londoners have not been "A Bit
Cross" since the blitz began in 1940 and tea supplies all but ran
out. Terrorists have been re-categorized from "Tiresome" to "A Bloody
Nuisance". The last time the British issued "A Bloody Nuisance"
warning level was during the great fire of 1666.
Also, the French government announced yesterday that it has raised
its terror alert level from "Run" to "Hide". The only two higher
levels in France are "Collaborate" and "Surrender." The rise was
precipitated by a recent fire that destroyed France's white flag
factory, effectively paralyzing the country's military capability.
It's not only the English and French who are on a heightened level of
alert. Italy has increased the alert level from "Shout loudly and
excitedly" to "Elaborate Military Posturing." Two more levels remain:
"Ineffective Combat Operations" and "Change Sides."
The Germans also increased their alert state from "Disdainful
Arrogance" to "Dress in Uniform and Sing Marching Songs." They also
have two higher levels: "Invade a Neighbor" and "Lose".
Belgians, on the other hand, are all on holiday as usual, and the
only threat they are worried about is NATO pulling out of Brussels.
The Spanish are all excited to see their new submarines ready to
deploy. These beautifully designed subs have glass bottoms so the new
Spanish navy can get a really good look at the old Spanish navy. |
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| Why am i moving you ask? |
[Jun. 29th, 2007|06:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my room | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stevie ray vaughan- house is rockin' | ] |
My bassist/drummer/friend Daniel is going to middle tennessee state, and he's majoring in music production. He already has an intern at the studio, and the guy who accepted him as such was saying how if he had a band he could get gigs all over Nashville (a town where if you are a place of bussiness WITHOUT music, you're out of standard.) That, and if im going to really pursue something i want...It won't be here. There isnt a blues scene here, there isnt a real rock scene here (lame ass hardcore and punk music is the only thing that exists here) and even that scene isn't worth a damn here. I'm just excited to be in a city that thrives off of music--even if it is dominantly country music. I'm excited for the future, it's going to be wonderful.
Oh and there are a lot of things i mean by succeeding. |
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| since i'd be burned if i posted this on myspace.... |
[May. 30th, 2007|12:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
LJ is perfectly acceptable!
exes survey.
So, who are your exes?
1. Liz
2. Geneva
3. Pam
4. Megan -- i dont have many exes apparently.
5. Ashlee (doesnt really count, but i cared for her enough)
6. the random hookups or one date-rs
The Questions...
Did You ever make out with number 2?
duh
Did any of them cheat on you?
i dont believe so.
Did you ever kiss 6?
wouldnt be a hookup without that.
Did you break up with 5?
no--i should have dated her though, in hindsight.
Were any of them shorter than you?
all of them, Ashlee was about my height though.
Do you think you were "in love" with any of them?
Geneva and Liz
Would you give any of them a second chance?
meh wouldnt work with any of them
Describe #2 in one word:
Artsy
Is love the best feeling in the world?
mostly.
Which one(s) asked you out?
i guess Ashlee did.
Why aren't you and 2 still dating?
lol ancient history. this is a loaded question if ever there was one.
Did you ever talk on the phone with 2?
yeah, we dated...
Are you still close with number 1?
not at all.
Did you have sex with any of them?
oddly enough, only one of them. |
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| be thankful you're alive, read this story please |
[Apr. 16th, 2007|12:06 am] |
Alright so im driving down feather river towards march (where the electrical plant is if you know what im talking about) and there was a buick lesabre about 120 feet-ish in front of me. On the curve, an eclipse came up and for some wierd reason, barrels into our lane and hits the lesabre HEAD on at about 40 miles an hour.
I slammed on my breaks so as to not rear end this disaster, and parked and put on my hazards. I sorta froze for a second, i couldnt believe what i just saw--and heard, it was loud as i couldnt have imagined. I get out of the car and dialed 911 and told them where and what not, and went up to the cars to see if anyone needed immediate help that i could give...the guy in the le sabre was climbing into his back seat so he could get out, cuz his door was trashed. He was okay though, obviously. i went to the eclipse, which was really destroyed. Two guys in that car, the one in the passenger seat was in a little shock but he looked at least okay. The guy in the driver seat....i couldnt' see half of his body it was coverd in his mangled car, he was un-conscious and in terrible shape. At this point, an older guy had pulled over and said "we need to get these guys out of the car." To which i told him was a bad idea. The guy in the passenger seat heard us and said "dont f***ing move me, my hip is all messed up." Then an off duty EMT showed up and said "no hes right dont move them." He looked into the hoods and then CHP got there. Then a few SPD, and one told me i had to stick around to give a statement.
While i was waiting for an available officer to talk to, i saw them getting the jaws of life to get the un-conscious guy out and had, and they alread had an IV going...he was in bad shape. Gave my statement, and came home...
BE THANKFUL FOR OUR LIVES YOU GUYS, SERIOUSLY.... |
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| Wow |
[Apr. 11th, 2007|11:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
Thanks, the one person. ONE person in my entire lifetime i would never thing to dissapoint and hurt my feelings like this, did. Seriously, that is like pulling the one pin and the whole enormous contraption falls apart. Anything else i probably could have ignored right now.. |
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| To all the girls who ever crossed my path... |
[Apr. 2nd, 2007|11:20 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
I had such a tiring day, i havent rested until about an hour ago...yet somehow emotions were crammed into it. I had a friend (and funny enough, shes always been ONLY a friend despite times when we wished it more) come back into my life and it shocked me. I thought it would never happen, but i guess karma really does come back and its nice to have her call me.
Anyway...I hope there are people who read this and dont tell me, but i do have something to say. For any girl ive ever dated/kissed/flirted/confessed to/had feelings for/connected with: You have meant something in my life. While there is only ONE I wouldnt talk to, and only one, the others (even some who wont talk to me) I really do wish you the best, because besides that one ive never known another who didnt have some beauty in their hearts. Perhaps im just in too good of a mood, but the older AJ, the one i used to know, comes out more lately and tells the truth--i still hope and wish the best for everybody (besides a few in the world, and even then i try to ignore the thought.) Anybody who reads this too, hell with it. All my friends, former friends, acquaintances--i hope you are doing well.
and if you are--let me know I'd love to hear from you regardless of our past! |
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| i still love to write |
[Mar. 29th, 2007|12:41 am] |
Beauty of a different Shade.
If things out of the ordinary
are horses of a different color,
then you are a beauty of a different shade.
By transcending the limits and boundaries
of what was thought possible,
You were created if only to be loved.
It's daunting to imagine
where your passions lie,
and whom they may lie for in time.
As to speaking so honestly,
I'm only forthright concerning what drives me the most.
Elegance was never lost,
it was merely waiting for you
to truly do it justice.
I wish to to write about you
as vividly as you are in dreams,
like a painting or song one can feel but not make real,
you will be written about, for, and mused
for as long as it takes a person
to see really you.
For that, there are no words. |
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| 5 really great songs (pt 1) |
[Mar. 18th, 2007|08:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | drained | ] |
1) The Beatles- In my Life
this song has such a pretty and poppy feel to it, that you can sum up a lot "beatlesy" attitude by just this song. The chord progressions with the minor suspension, it's just a really feel good song.
2) Jackson 5- Want You Back
Motown had some of the catchiest hooks, and again some of the best "feel good" songs from any era, this song is a really great song and a young Michael Jackson sings about themes that a 10 year old should have no clue how to express with such conviction. Such a killer song and i love putting it on.
3) Jimi Hendrix- Bold as Love
I could have picked a lot of them right now, but this song has been stuck in my head particularly the last few weeks. Hendrix himself said of this song that it was a feeling and a sound in his head he wanted to get out and had trouble doing. He said he felt great and it was exactly as he pictured it when it was done. A great blues song and as always, he was wonderful with lyrics.
4) Prince- Purple Rain
I was gonna talk about "Kiss" which is another kick ass song, but purple rain is such a great power ballad from an artist (no pun intended) who can outplay, outwrite, and out showmanship anybody when he puts his mind to it.
5) The Knack- My Sharona
It has the stigma of being a complete novelty song, and in many ways it is, but this song takes an old idea (perfect octave riffing, IE Zeppelins Immigrant song) and revitalized rock and roll during the time when disco was ruling the airwaves. The Knack's singer really has a great characteristic to his singing, because its ultimately really cheesy, but this song really does get to you. |
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| I'm a typically very happy person |
[Feb. 13th, 2007|07:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | John Mayer Trio- Good Love Is On The Way | ] |
I get the feeling i've either lost sight of myself as a good person (which as i think about it even a little isn't true) or i have the wrong friends. There are people who barely know me who i feel would mourn my death more than some of my "close friends" should i die tomorrow.
I realize that is incredibly morbid and altogether "emo." However, i can't deny i feel it is almost the truth. I'm not sure why i just havent been happy lately, though i wouldn't by any means say im depressed. Just, a little sad i guess. Maybe i need to re-think some things. |
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| Tonight |
[Feb. 11th, 2007|12:53 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Journey- Don't Stop | ] |
Was rather interesting. I told a newly made friend i'd play some tunes for him/with him at his church function. It was up in rancho cordova so i rode with his friend and watched their function, which was actually just a night where they honored the girls.
In more recent times, i've become very cynical of many things particularly peoples churches and im actually really happy i diverted from that, because in truth it doesn't matter. These people all had beautiful hearts and i had a good time getting to know them, playing and singing some music for them, and totally beating them in "Mafia" (great game btw.)
You find people on street corners preaching about who's faith doesnt make sense, who's faith is wrong and things of this nature and you know people really miss the point. If you believe in the basic fundamentals of the golden rule, and being good to people--who cares? I mean who cares if this faith doesnt practice this custom like yours, or even if another believes in another God. I think the powers that be would laugh, because we needed to be reminded the point is to believe in something that makes you a good person, and not just that, a person of ethic and work. To contribute to the world is to actually go out and do something, you feel me?
It's nice to feel the attitude of how i felt when i was younger--when i actually really did just like everybody and was really happy. I feel it again, tonight was nice. |
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